If you could define your faith by defining your polar opposite what would it be?

My polar opposite is the person that does and says things on a blind leap of faith. On average I like to wait and test the water, see what’s going on first. I’ll admit, sometime even I have to close my eyes and jump.

just remember that even though the north pole is on the top and the south pole is on the bottom, their both covered in Ice…

Here was the specific Question that got me started.
even though this questions doesn’t seem to have anything to do with my thought at all.
“Could you be satisfied with heaven, if Christ was not there?”

Here is what I thought of…
“I think for me its more often that I would just simply like to be able to look Jesus directly in the eyes. Knowing the power He has, holds the weight of that request.”

I’m not really one to sit around and talk about my beliefs, and if you know me or have met me you may have realized this. All that to say this is one of the things I think about when I think about Heaven. After it’s all said and done the one thing I know we’ll all have to do is look Him strait in the eye and say something.

I think that a lot of people like prayer because we feel we can talk to God, but if you actually had the chance to look into His eyes what would you do?

Sometimes I get caught up in the third person and think about it from a none believers stand point and I think I sound a little crazy to saying these things. Let me create a little story for what I’m thinking. if you’re a slow reader this could get long…

Imagine there’s a long line of people and you’re standing right in the middle. You’re not sure why you are there. You are not really sure what everyone is lined up for, but you just can’t bring yourself to get out of the line.

An hour goes by and finally the line starts to pass along a little info about what’s going on up in the front. Of course the first thought that goes through your mind is that telephone game where all the words get messed up and by the time you hear it your mom has grown antlers so big she can’t hold her head up strait. Finally you get a glimpse of what’s going on and you hear that there is a Man at the front of the line that is supposedly the Son God and potentially has the power to open your soul and put it on the table. “ok…?”

An hour goes by and another story rips through the line about a person who looked this man directly in the eyes, and it was as if a huge wind came through and took his ashes away with the wind. “What does that even mean”, you think.

It’s been hours since you’ve even heard a peep out of people and the weight of this line has started to become real. The idea that what they are saying has really started to become a weight and it’s even beginning to worry you a little. “No, I’m not so sure about this line and everything people have said, but now I have to see what’s real and what’s fake.”

Finally there you are, close enough to be face to face, but the reality of truth has you gripping your stair strait down. Yet compelled to look up, you realized there’s no time limit here and eventually you will look up.

I always see myself in this line, standing and waiting until it’s my turn to look down at the ground. The only thing that compels me to look up is that I know that the only part of me that will not be blown away is the part that He’s put inside of me.

I hope this made sense, I have tendency to say things only I understand.

I just hope I can get past all the accents, and actually hear what people are saying.

I went over to Without Wax and something in his post got me thinking about how the majority of “Christians”, in my perspective, seem to be missing a healthy dose of “Reality”. Not sure what part is missing, but something is missing.

No more that 4 blogs later I came across one of Carlos’s posts with a banner that some people were walking around with.

Obviously these people have issues and the majority of “Christians” would agree to a point.

Here is my question…

What is it about the average “Christians” daily life that reminds them of God’s existence? What is it that reminds them of the Truth? Once you have these thoughts in mind, think about how loudly they spoke to you. Literally how loud did you hear them in your ears?

Well I’m not crazy so I didn’t hear anything. What I did notice was the subtle consistency of the “Reality” around me; “Life“. The calmness of Nature and peace of Silence.

I just wish more people would reflect a life of Christ than talk about one.

I can’t say much for myself, I’m not the best example of a good reflection, but I would rather reflect than be heard.

After I read it I started to think of how much of a freak I would be acting like if I really only had 30days to live. I’d probably be running all over the place and babbling about all types of things trying to scramble to get it all done. Then I thought, 30 months would be a lot better. And the death at the end of 30 months would quick so no you’re not spending the time in the hospital or anything.

30 Months ‘hmmmm???’ 2.5yrs ‘hmmmm???’ What to do???

I’m not sure what I would really do with my last 30 days, or 30 months. I know this for sure, showing gratitude and giving thanks is never a waste. I think that is where I would start.

I was out reading posts this morning and there were two I read that got my brain gears to turn.

1. manofdepravity (Tyler Braun)
   • What is Wrong with the Church?

     I read Tyler’s post first, which got me thinking about what I thought was wrong with the Church. I thought about a lot of different issues that came to mind, and all the reasons Church has the ability to bug me. I also thought about all the reasons for fellowship.

2. withoutwax (Pete Wilson)
• A Lump In My Throat

  Later I read Pete’s post about an influential person in his life that took a spill, and who has recently posted about mistakes.

Both of these post really got me thinking about the fact that I haven’t been connected to a Church in over 4yrs. That’s a long time I know. I don’t advise that kind of a break from the Church community with out sufficient cause. Although I must admit, I’ve gained a new perspective and found a new desire for fellowship. Perhaps it’s a prodigal son type of situation, but I don’t like to put myself in the Bible stories too much. and no I am not a new believer

Here’s what I’m thinking (pete)…We Live, We Choose, then We’re Judged. Nothing escapes the Book of Life. And, while we can hide our Choices behind the difficulties of this Life, good people do unspeakable things. I’m thinking the equality of sin is never apparent because the wave of it’s effect is measured by our approval.

If Sin was Dirt, and you wore your Sin daily, How dirty would you be. I’m pretty freaking dirty, in fact I probably leave a trail.

Not sure why, but I always feel this way when I go to Church. It’s not that bad of a thing to feel in my opinion, but it’s there none the less. It’s not that I feel left out or treated differently, but something is just a little off.

I think that finding a place where you can fellowship with other believers is a huge part of Life. I’ve always thought that feeling like a Spoon caught with the Forks might be a good thing. Maybe us Spoons have something to offer we don’t know about.

This may sound cheesy, but perhaps us Spoons just aren’t paying attention to the reality that we don’t poke things we scoop them.

I think the world is full of people that have mush for brains. I seriously do. There’s really no need to go check out these pages, but if you really have too than its okay.

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a little update. 10min after I originaly posted this I noticed brody had just posted about it. glad to see im not the only one who thinks its rediculouse.

I read two posts this morning. Bush – Still the reason for the Season? and Brody – Pray like you Mean it.

Individually they don’t mention this topic, but after reading them and some of the comments the only thing that came to mind was “Christianity without Christ”. In the back of my head I really think there is a block of verses that talks about this, but just can not find it. (if you do let me know)
The point here is that I understand the need for a good relationship with Christ, but I dont like all the blubber that pops in my head when I think about it. ‘i am a critical hypocrite who is hyper-sensitive to people that are tripping over themselves in public about Jesus and God’. Why? I think i might have been like that when i was younger.

• This sounds retarded, but I think it’s true.

If I could switch the title around in my head I might live a fuller life.

For the Record I am not saying that Bush Or Brody are “Christianity without Christ”. I think these two guys have a good handle on what it means to have a relationship without blubbering in the streets.